Friday, July 26, 2019

And that, as they say, is that.

My birthday yesterday concludes the 2019 season of grief.

 I did a few things differently this year and it feels like my focus is shifting. I'm looking more to the future than to the past for my identity and to inform my decision making.

It's not easy to do things with only yourself in mind after 21 years of marriage. I don't even have children to consider.

While the inability to have children and the untimely loss of my husband are an absolutely cruel combination of tragedies, I'm starting to feel the freedom and opportunity in my predicament.

I will never be a mother and I will always be a widow, but those aren't the only identities available to me. (Traveler and adventurer are the identities I'm most looking forward to.)

I bring Brian with meas I move forward
through my life.

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